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Divine Mercy
In my soul
The Diary
of the Servant of God
Sister M. Faustina Kowalska
NOTEBOOK VI
J.M.J.
Praise, O my soul,
The incomprehensible mercy of God.
May all be for His glory.
Cracow, February 10, 1938.
Sixth Notebook.
Sister Faustina of the Blessed Sacrament
Of the Congregation
Of the sisters of Our Lady of Mercy.
My heart is drawn there where my God is hidden,
Where He dwells with us day and night,
Clothed in the White Host;
He governs the whole world, He communes with souls.
My heart is drawn there where my God is hiding,
Where His love is immolated.
But my heart senses that the living water is here;
It is my living God, though a veil hides Him.

February 10, 1938. During meditation, the Lord gave me knowledge
of the joy of heaven and of the saints on our arrival there; they
love God as the sole object of their love, but they also have a
tender and heartfelt love for us. It is from the face of God that
this joy flows out upon all, because we see Him face to face. His
face is so sweet that the soul falls anew into ecstasy.
The Lord himself moves me to write prayers and hymns about His
mercy, and these hymns of praise force themselves upon my lips. I
have noticed that ready formulated words of praise of God’s
mercy enter my mind, and so I have resolved to write them down in
so far as is within my power. I can feel God urging me to do so.
One of the sisters came into my cell for a little while. After a
short conversation on the subject of obedience, she said to me,
“oh, now I understand how the saints acted. Thank you, sister, a
great light has entered my soul; I have profited much.”
O my Jesus, this is Your work. It is You who have spoken thus to
that soul, because this sister came in when I was completely
immersed in God, and it was just at that moment when this deep
recollection left me. O my Jesus, I know that, in order to be
useful to souls, one has to strive for the closest possible union
with You, who are Eternal love. One word from a soul united to God
effects more good in souls than eloquent discussions and sermons
from an imperfect soul.
I saw Father Andrasz surprise at my actions, but all that is for
the glory of God. Oh, how great is Your grace, O Lord, grace which
lifts the soul up to greater heights. I am very grateful to the
Lord for having given me an enlightened priest. You could have
continued to leave me in uncertainties and hesitations, but Your
goodness remedied that. O my Jesus, it is impossible for me to
count your favors…
My daughter, your struggle will last
until death. Your last breath will mark its end. You shall conquer
by meekness.
February 13, 1938. I saw how unwillingly the Lord Jesus came to
certain souls in Holy Communion. And He spoke these words to me: I
enter into certain hearts as into a second Passion.
As I was trying to make my Holy Hour,
I saw the suffering Jesus, who spoke these words to me: My
daughter, do not pay so much attention to the vessel of grace as
to the grace itself which I gave you, because you are not always
pleased with the vessel, and then the graces too, become
deficient. I want to guard your from that, and I want you never to
pay attention to the vessel in which I send you My grace. Let all
the attention of your soul be concentrated on responding to My
grace as faithfully as possible.
O my Jesus, I You yourself do not
soothe the longing of my soul, then no one can either comfort or
soothe it. Your every approach arouses new raptures of love in my
soul, but also a new agony; because, despite all Your approaches
to my soul, even the most exceptional, I am still loving You from
a distance, and my heart dies in an ecstasy of love; because this
is still not the complete and eternal union, although you commune
with me so very often unveiled as if face to face, nevertheless,
You thereby open in my soul and heart an abyss of love and desire
for You, my God, and this bottomless abyss, this total desiring of
God, cannot be completely filled on this earth.
The Lord has given me to know how much He desires the perfection
of chosen souls. Chosen souls are, in
My hand, lights which I cast into the darkness of the world and
with which I illumine it. As stars illumine the night, so chosen
souls illumine the earth. And the more perfect a soul is, the
stronger and the more-far reaching is the light shed by it. It can
be hidden and unknown, even to those closest to it, and yet its
holiness is reflected in souls even to the most distant
extremities of the world.
Today, the Lord said to me, Daughter,
when you go to confession, to this fountain of My mercy, the Blood
and Water which came forth from My Heart always flow down upon
your soul and ennobles it. Every time you go to confession,
immerse yourself entirely in My mercy, with great trust, so that I
may pour the bounty of My grace upon your soul. When you approach
the confessional, know this, that I myself am waiting there for
you. I am only hidden by the priest, but I myself act in your
soul. Here the misery of the soul meets the God of mercy. Tell
souls that from this fount of mercy souls draw graces solely with
the vessel of trust. If their trust is great, there is no limit to
My generosity. The torrents of grace inundate humble souls. The
proud remain always in poverty and misery, because My grace turns
away from them to humble souls.

February 14, 1938. During adoration, I heard these words: Pray
for one of the students who has great need of My grace. And
I recognized N. I prayed hard, and God’s mercy embraced that
soul.
When during adoration, I repeated the prayer, “Holy God”
several times, a vivid presence of God suddenly swept over me, and
I was caught up in spirit before the majesty of God. I saw how the
angels and the saints of the Lord give glory to God. The glory of
God is so great that I dare not try to describe it, because I
would not be able to do so, and souls might think that what I have
written is all there is. Saint Paul, I understand now why you did
not want to describe heaven, but only said that eye has not seen,
nor ear heard, nor has it entered into the heart of man what God
has prepared for those who love Him. Yes, that is indeed so. And
all that has come forth from God returns to Him in the same way
and gives Him perfect glory. Now I have seen the way in which to
adore God; oh, how miserable it is! And what a tiny drop it is in
comparison to that perfect heavenly glory. O my God, how good You
are to accept my praise as well, and to turn Your Face to me with
kindness and let us know that our prayer is pleasing to You.
Write down everything that occurs to
you regarding My goodness. I
answered, “what do You mean, Lord, what if I write too much?”
and the Lord replied, My daughter, even
if you were to speak at one and the same time in all human and
angelic tongues, even then you would not have said very much, but
on the contrary, you would have sung in only a small measure the
praised of My Goodness – of My unfathomable mercy. O
my Jesus, You yourself must put words into my mouth, that I may
praise You worthily. My daughter, be at
peace, do as I tell you. Your thoughts are united to My thoughts,
so write whatever comes to mind. You are the secretary of My
mercy. I have chosen you for that office in this life and the next
life. That is how I want it to be in spite of all the opposition
they will give you. Know that My choice will not change. At
that moment I steeped myself in profound humility before God’s
majesty. But the more I humbled myself, the more God’s presence
penetrated me…
O Jesus, my only solace! How frightful is this exile! How terrible
this wilderness I have to cross! My soul is struggling through a
terrible thicket of all kinds of difficulties. If you yourself did
not support me, Lord, there would be no thought of my moving
forward.

February 16, 1938. as I was praying to the living Heart of Jesus
in the Blessed Sacrament for the intention of a certain priest,
Jesus suddenly gave me knowledge of His goodness and said to me, I
will give him nothing that is beyond his strength.
When o learned of some of the
sufferings and troubles that a certain person was going through in
connection with this whole work of God, I asked the Lord Jesus
before Holy Communion that He might make known to me whether by
any chance these sufferings were not caused by me: “My sweetest
Jesus, I implore You by Your infinite goodness and mercy, make
know to me whether anything in this matter displeases You or
whether there is some fault of mine in this. If there is, I ask
You, when You enter my heart, fill it with unrest and make know to
me Your displeasure. And if I am not guilty in this matter,
confirm me in peace.” when I receive the Lord, my soul was
filled with great peace, and the Lord gave me to know that the
work was undergoing at trial, but was no less pleasing to God
because of this. I felt great joy at this but I redoubled my
prayers so that this work might come through the ordeal unharmed.
O my Jesus, how good it is to be on the cross, but with You! With
You, my Love, my soul is constantly stretched out on the cross and
is being filled with bitterness. Vinegar and gall touch my lips,
but it is good that it is so, because Your Divine Heart was filled
with bitterness throughout Your life, and in return for Your love
You received ingratitude. You were in such pain that a sorrowful
complaint escaped your lips when You said that You were looking
for someone to console You and You found no one.
When I asked the Lord to be so good as to cast a glance upon a
certain soul [probably Father Sopocko] who was struggling alone
against many difficulties, the Lord gave me to know, in an
instant, that all people are as dust under His feet. So
do not worry; you see that they cannot do a thing of themselves.
And if I allow them to seem to triumph, I do this for the sake of
My impenetrable decrees. I
experienced great peace in seeing how all things are determined by
the Lord.
When the chaplain [Father Theodore] brings me the Lord Jesus,
there are moments when I am pervaded with a very vivid presence of
God, and the Lord gives me to know His holiness. At such times, I
see the smallest speck on my soul, and I would like to purify my
soul before every Holy Communion. When I asked the confessor, he
said there was no need to confess before every Holy Communion.
Holy Communion takes away these tiny things and it is a temptation
to think about confession when receiving Holy Communion. I did not
go on to explain the condition of my soul in any greater detail,
because he was not my director, but the confessor. This knowledge
does not take up my time, because it is faster than lightning; it
enkindles my love, leaving me with a knowledge of myself…

February 20, 1938. Today the Lord said to me, I
have need of your sufferings to rescue souls.
O my Jesus, do with me as You please.
I did not have the courage to ask the Lord Jesus for greater
sufferings, because I had suffered so much the night before that I
would not have been able to bear a drop more than what Jesus
himself gave me.
Almost all night I had such violent pains that it seemed all my
intestines were torn to pieces. I threw up the medicine I had
taken. When I bowed my head down to the ground, I lost
consciousness, and I stayed like that for some time, with my head
on the floor. When I came to, I became aware that my whole body
was pressing on my head and face, and that I was covered with
vomit. I thought it would be the end of me. Dear Mother superior
[Irene] and sister Tarcisia were trying to help me as best they
could. Jesus demanded suffering but not death. O my Jesus, do with
me as You please. Only give me strength to suffer. Since Your
strength supports me, I shall bear everything. O souls, how I love
you!
Today, one of the sisters [probably sister Amelia] came to see me
and said, “sister, I have a strange feeling, as though something
were telling me to come to you and commend to you certain problems
of mine before you die, and that perhaps you will be able to
beseech the Lord Jesus and arrange these things for me. Something
keeps telling me that you will be able to obtain this for me.” I
answered her with equal frankness that, yes, I felt in my soul
that after my death I would be able to obtain more from the Lord
Jesus than at the present time. “I will remember you, sister,
before His throne.”
When I entered the neighboring dormitory to visit the sisters who
were ill, one of them said to me, “sister, when you die I will
not fear you at all. Come to see me after you die, because I want
to confide to you a secret concerning my soul, something I want
you to settle for me with the Lord Jesus. I know you can obtain
this from Him.” Because she was speaking in public I answered
her in this way: “the Lord Jesus is very discreet. And so He
never betrays to anyone a secret that is between Him and a
soul.”
Oh my Lord, thank you for conforming me to Yourself through
immolation. I see that this earthly vessel is beginning to
crumble. I rejoice in this, because soon I will be in my
Father’s house.

February 27, 1938. Today, I went to confession to Father Andrasz.
I did as Jesus wanted. After confession, a surge of light filled
my soul. Then I heard a voice: Because
you are a child, you shall remain close to My Heart. Your
simplicity is more pleasing to Me than your mortifications.
Father Andrasz’s words: Live more
by faith. Pray that the divine Mercy become more widely known, and
that the work may come into good hands that will manage it well.
As for yourself, try to be a good religious here- although things
may turn out that way also – but try to be a good religious
right here. And now, if you feel those urgings from the Lord and
recognize that it is He, follow them. Devote to prayer all the
time that is set apart for it, and make your notations
afterwards…
The last two days of carnival. My physical sufferings have
intensified. I am uniting myself more closely with the suffering
Savior, asking Him for mercy for the whole world, which is running
riot in its wickedness. Throughout the day I felt the pain of the
crown of thorns. When I lay down, I could not rest my head on the
pillow. But at ten o’clock the pains ceased, and I fell asleep;
but the next day I felt very exhausted.
Jesus-Host, if You yourself did not sustain me, I would not be
able to persevere on the cross. I would not be able to endure so
much suffering. But the power of Your grace maintains me on a
higher level and makes my sufferings meritorious. You give me
strength always to move forward and to gain heaven by force and to
have love in my heart for those from whom I suffer adversities and
contempt. With Your grace one can do all things.

March 1, 1938. One day retreat.
In meditation, I learned that I should hide myself as deeply as
possible in the Heart of Jesus, meditate upon His Sorrowful
Passion, and penetrate into the sentiments of His Divine Heart,
which is full of mercy for sinners. In order to obtain mercy for
them, I will empty myself at every moment, living by the will of
God.
Throughout this Lent, I am a host in Your hand, Jesus. Make use of
me so that You may enter into sinners Yourself. Demand anything
You like; no sacrifice will seem too much for me when souls are at
stake.
I have offered this whole month’s Masses and Holy Communions for
the intention of Father Andrasz, that God may give him an even
deeper knowledge of His love and mercy.
This month I will practice the three virtues recommended to me by
the Mother of God: humility, purity and love of God, accepting
with profound submission to the will of God, everything that He
will send me.
March 2, 1938. I began Holy Lent in the way that Jesus wanted me
to, making myself totally dependent upon His holy will and
accepting with love everything that He sends me. I cannot practice
any greater mortifications, because I am so very weak. This long
illness has sapped my strength completely. I am uniting myself
with Jesus through suffering. When I meditate on His painful
Passion, my physical sufferings are lessened.
The Lord said to me, I am taking you
into My school for the whole of Lent. I want to teach you how to
suffer. I answered, “with You,
Lord, I am ready for everything.” And I heard a voice, you
are allowed to drink from the cup from which I drink. I give you
that exclusive privilege today…
Today I felt the Passion of Jesus in
my whole body, and the Lord gave me knowledge of the conversion of
certain souls.
During Holy Mass, I saw Jesus stretched out on the Cross, and He
said to me, My pupil, have great love
for those who cause you suffering. Do good to those who hate you. I
answered, “O my Master, You see very well that I feel no love
for them, and that troubles me.” Jesus answered, It
is not always within your power to control your feelings. You will
recognize that you have love if, after having experienced
annoyance and contradiction, you do not lose your peace, but pray
for those who have made you suffer and wish them well. When
I returned […]

J.M.J.
I am a host in Your hand,
O Jesus, my Creator and Lord,
Silent, hidden, without beauty or charm,
Because all the beauty of my soul is imprinted within me.
I am a host in Your hand, O Divine Priest,
Do with me as You please;
I am totally dependent on Your will, O Lord
Because it is the delight and adornment of my soul.
I am like a white host in Your hand, O God,
I implore You, transform me into Yourself.
May I be wholly hidden in You,
Locked in Your merciful Heart as in Heaven.
I am like a host in Your hand, O Eternal Priest,
May the wafer of my body hide me from human eye;
May your eye alone measure my love and devotion,
Because my heart is always united with Your Divine Heart.
I am like a sacrificial host in Your hand, O Divine Mediator,
And I burn on the altar of holocaust,
Crushed and ground by suffering like grains of wheat,
And all this for the sake of Your glory, for the salvation of
souls.
I am a host abiding in the tabernacle of Your Heart.
I go through life drowned in Your love,
And I fear nothing in the world,
For you Yourself are my shield, my strength, and my defense.
I am a host, laid on the alter of Your Heart,
To burn forever with the fire of love,
For I know that You have lifted me up solely because of Your
mercy,
And so I turn all these gifts and graces to Your glory.
I am a host in Your hand, O Judge and Savior.
In the last hour of my life,
May the omnipotence of Your grace lead me to my goal,
May Your compassion on the vessel of mercy become famous.
Jesus, fortify the powers of my soul that the enemy gain nothing.
Without You, I am weakness itself. What am I without your grace if
not an abyss of my own misery? Misery is my possession.
O wound of mercy, Heart of Jesus, hide me in Your depths as a drop
of Your own blood, and do not let me out forever! Lock me in your
depths, and do You yourself teach me to love You! Eternal Love, do
You yourself form my soul that it be make capable of returning
Your love. O living Love, enable me to love You forever, I yearn
to eternally reciprocate Your love. O Christ, a single gaze from
You is dearer to me than a thousand worlds, than all heaven
itself. Lord, You can make my soul capable of understanding
completely who You are. I know and I believe that You can do all
things; if you have deigned to give Yourself to me so generously,
then I know that You can be even more generous. Bring me into an
intimacy with You so far as it is possible for human nature to be
brought…

J.M.J.
The desires of my heart are so great and incomprehensible that
nothing can fill the abyss of my heart.
Even the most beautiful things, gathered from all over the world,
Would not for a moment fill Your place for me, O God.
With one glance, I penetrated the whole world,
And I found no other love like the love of my heart.
Therefore I looked into the world of eternity
Because this one is too small for me.
My heart has desired the love of the Immortal One.
My heart has sensed that I am a royal child,
That I have found myself in exile, in a foreign land.
I see that the heavenly palace is my home;
Only there will I feel as in my own fatherland.
You yourself have drawn my soul to You, O Lord;
O Eternal Word, You yourself have stooped to me,
Giving my soul a deeper knowledge of Yourself.
Behold, the mystery of love for which You have created me!
Pure love has made me strong and brave.
I fear neither the seraphim nor the cherubim, standing with sword
in hand,
And I pass over with ease where others tremble,
Because there is nothing to fear, there where love is the guide.
And suddenly the eye of my soul came to rest upon You,
O Lord Jesus Christ, stretched upon the cross.
Here is my Love, with whom I will rest in my grave,
This is my Bridegroom, my incomprehensible Lord and God.
[Here occurs a bigger space in the Diary]

March 10, 1938. Continuous physical suffering. I am on the cross
with Jesus. On one occasion, M. Superior [Irene] said to me, “it
is a lack of love of neighbor on your part, sister, that you eat
something and then you suffer and disturb the others during their
night’s rest.” Yet I know for sure that these pains which
occur in my intestines are not at all caused by food. The doctor
[probably Dr. Silberg] has said the same thing. These sufferings
come from the body itself, or rather are a visitation of the Lord.
Nevertheless, after that remark I resolved to suffer in secret and
not to ask for help, because it is of no avail anyway, since I
throw up the medicines that are given to me.
May a time, I have managed to suffer through attacks that were
known only to Jesus. The pains are so violent and severe that they
cause me to lost consciousness. When they cause me to faint, and I
am drenched in cold sweat, then they gradually begin to go away.
Sometimes they last three hours or more. O My Jesus, may Your holy
will be done; I accept everything from Your hand. If I accept the
delights and raptures of love to the point of becoming oblivious
to what is going on around me, it is only right that I should
accept with love these sufferings which cause me to faint.
When the doctor came, I could not go down to the parlor to see
him, like the other sisters, but asked that he come to my cell,
because I could not go down due to a certain difficulty. After a
while, he came to the cell and, having examined me, said, “I
tell everything to the sister infirmarian.” When the sister
infirmarian came, after the doctor had left, I told her why I
hadn’t been able to go down to the parlor, but she gave me to
know what how very displeased she was. And when I asked,
“sister, what did the doctor say about these pains?” she
answered that he had said nothing, that it was nothing, that he
had said the patient was just sulking. And with that she went off.
Then I said to God, “Christ, give me strength and power to
suffer; give to my heart a pure love for this sister.” After
that, she did not look in on me again for a whole week. But the
sufferings returned with great violence and lasted almost the
whole night, and it seemed that it would be the end, then and
there. The superiors decided to approach another doctor, and he
ascertained that my condition was serious and said to me, “it
will not be possible to return you to good health. We can remedy
your condition partially, but complete recovery is out of
question.” He prescribed a medicine for the pains, and after I
had taken it, the major attacks did not return. “But if you come
here, sister, we will try to patch up your health somehow, if that
is still possible.” The doctor very much wanted me to go there
for a treatment. O my Jesus, how strange are your decrees!
Jesus orders me to write all this for the consolation of other
souls who will often be exposed to similar sufferings.
Although I was feeling very weak, I went to see the doctor [silberg]
because that was the superior’s will. The sister who was my
companion was very unhappy about this. She made this known to me
several times and finally said, “What are we going to do? I
don’t have enough money to pay for the cab.” How are we going
to get there? It’s such a long way.” She said this and many
other things just to worry me, because our dear superiors had
given us enough money for everything, and we didn’t run short.
And understanding this whole business within myself, I laughed and
told sister that I was not worried one bit: “let’s trust in
God.” But I saw that my deep peace was getting on her nerves,
and so I started to pray for her intention.
O my Lord, all this is for You and to obtain mercy for poor
sinners. When I returned, I was so very tired that I had to lie
down right away. But it was the day for the quarterly confession.
I tried to go to confession, not only because I had need to do so,
but also to ask advice of my spiritual director [Father Andrasz].
I began to prepare myself; however I felt so weak that I decided
to go ask Mother superior [Irene] to allow me to go before the
novices. Mother superior answered, “Go and look for the
directress of Novices, [sister Callista]. If she allows you to go
before the novices, it is all right with me.” However, there
were only three sisters ahead of me, waiting for confession, and
so I waited because I did not have enough strength to go and look
for the Directress of Novices. When I went in to make my
confession I was feeling so bad that I could not give an account
of the condition of my soul; I barely managed to make my
confession. At that point, I noted how much the spirit is needed;
the letter itself does not make love grow.
On that day, there arose some misunderstandings between the
Superior and myself. Neither she nor I was to blame, but moral
suffering remained, because I could not explain the matter in
question, since it was a secret. This was the reason why I
suffered, even though by a single word, I could have revealed the
truth.

March 20, 1938. Today, in spirit, I accompanied a certain dying
soul. I obtained trust in God’s mercy for her. The soul was near
despair.
This night is known only to You, O Lord. I have offered it for
poor obdurate sinners, to obtain Your mercy for them. Scourge me
here, burn me here, as long as You give me the souls of sinners,
and especially … O Jesus, with You nothing is lost; take
everything and give me souls… sinners.
At adoration during the Fourthy-Hour devotion, the Lord said to
me, My daughter, write that involuntary
offenses of souls do not hinder My love for them or prevent Me
from uniting Myself with them. But voluntary offenses, even the
smallest, obstruct My graces, and I cannot lavish My gifts on such
souls.
Jesus gave me to know of how everything is dependent on His will,
thus giving me profound peace as regards the security of His work.
Listen, My daughter, although all the
works that come into being by My will are exposed to great
sufferings, consider whether any of them has been subject to
greater difficulties than that work which is directly Mine – the
work of Redemption. You should not worry too much about
adversaries. The world is not as powerful as it seems to be; its
strength is strictly limited. Know, My daughter, that if your soul
is filled with the fire of My pure Love, then all difficulties
dissipate like fog before the sun’s rays and dare not touch the
soul. All adversaries are afraid to start a quarrel with such a
soul, because they sense that it is stronger than the whole
world…
My daughter, do as much for this work of mercy as obedience
allows, but present clearly to your confessor the very least of My
demands, and he will decide. You must not shirk in any way, but
carry out everything faithfully; otherwise, I would find no
pleasure in you…

March 25, 1938. Today, I saw the suffering Lord Jesus. He leaned
down toward me and whispered softly, My
daughter, help Me to save sinners. Suddenly,
a burning desire to save souls entered my soul. When I recovered
my senses, I knew just how I was to help souls, and I prepared
myself for greater sufferings.
Today, [probably Friday, March 25, 1938] my suffering increased;
in addition, I felt wounds in my hands, feet and side. I endured
this with patience. I sensed the hostility of the enemy of souls,
but he did not touch me.
April 1, 1938. Once again, I am feeling worse today. A high fever
is beginning to consume me, and I cannot take any food. I would
like to have something refreshing to drink, but there is not even
any water in my pitcher. All this, O Jesus, to obtain mercy for
souls.
Just as I was renewing my intention with greater love, one of the
novices came in and gave me a big orange which had been sent by
the Directress of Novices [sister Callista]. I saw the Lord’s
hand in this. The same thing happened again, several times. During
this time, although my needs were known, I never received anything
refreshing to eat, even though I had asked for it. However, I knew
that God was demanding suffering and sacrifices. I am not writing
in detail about these refusals, because these are delicate
matters, and it is difficult to believe. Yet God can demand even
such sacrifices.
I was about to ask Mother superior [Irene] to allow me to have
something in my cell with which to quench my great thirst, but
before I managed to ask, Mother herself began to speak. “Sister,
let’s make an end of this illness once and for all, one way or
another. You’ll have to undergo regular treatment or something.
Things can’t go on like this any longer.” A little later when
I was alone I said, “Christ, what am I to do? Am I to ask You
for health or for death?” I had no clear command, so I knelt
down and said, “May your holy will be done in my regard. Do with
me, Jesus, as You please.” At that very moment, I felt as though
I were all alone, and various temptations attacked me. But I found
peace and light in earnest prayer, and I understood that the
superior only wished to test me.
I don’t know how this happens, but the room in which I have been
lying has been very much neglected. Sometimes, it has not been
cleaned for more than two weeks. Often, no one would light a fire
in the stove, and so my cough would get worse. Sometimes I would
ask to have a fire lit, and at other times I did not have the
courage to ask. On one occasion, when Mother superior [Irene] came
to see me and asked me if perhaps it was necessary to heat the
room more, I said, No, because it was already getting warmer
outside, and we had the window open.
First Friday. When I took the Messenger of the Sacred Heart into
my hand and read the account of the canonization of Saint Andrew
Bobola, my soul was instantly filled with a great longing that our
Congregation, too, might have a saint, and I wept like a child
that there was no saint in our midst. And I said to the Lord, “I
know your generosity, and yet it seems to me that You are less
generous toward us.” And I began again to weep like a little
child. And the Lord Jesus said to me, Don’t
cry. You are that Saint. Then the
light of God inundated my soul, and I was given to know how much I
was to suffer, and I said to the Lord, “How will that come
about? You have been speaking to me about another congregation.”
and the Lord answered, It is not for
you to know how this will come about. Your duty is to be faithful
to My grace and to do always what is within your power and what
obedience allows you to do…
Today one of the sisters came into my
room and said that such and such a sister was very fussy over her
own illness, and that she found this very annoying and would
gladly give her a piece of her mind were it not for the fact that
she was not a member of this convent. I answered that I was
surprised that she should even think in such a way: “sister,
just think of how many sleepless nights this sick sister has been
through and of how many tears…” the sister then came to think
differently.

J.M.J.
Adore, my soul, the mercy of the Lord,
O my heart, rejoice wholly in Him,
Because for this you have been chosen by Him,
To spread the glory of His mercy.
His goodness no one has fathomed, no one can measure,
His compassion is untold.
Every soul that approaches Him experiences this.
He will shield her and clasp her to His merciful bosom.
Happy the soul that has trusted in Your goodness
And has abandoned herself completely to Your mercy.
Her soul is filled with the peace of love.
You defend her everywhere as Your own child.
O soul, whoever you may be in this world,
Even if your sins were as black as night,
Do not fear God, weak child that you are,
For great is the power of God’s mercy.

J.M.J.
The light above, where my God reigns,
This it is that my soul yearns for,
This it is for which my heart longs,
And my whole being bounds towards You.
I hasten on to the other world, to God alone,
Into the incomprehensible light, the very fire of love,
For my soul and my heart are created for Him,
And my heart has loved Him from my tender youth.
There, in the resplendent light of Your countenance
My languishing love will rest.
For Your virgin agonizes for You in her exile,
For she lives only when united with You.

J.M.J.
My day is drawing to a close,
Even now I glimpse the refulgence of Your light, O my God.
No one shall learn of what my heart is feeling;
My lips shall fall silent in great humility.
Even now, I draw nigh to the eternal nuptials,
To heaven unending, to spaces without limit.
I long for no repose or reward;
The pure love of God draws me to heaven.
Even now, I go to meet You, eternal love
With a heart languishing in its desire for You.
I feel that Your pure love, Lord, dwells in my heart,
And I sense my eternal destiny in heaven.
Even now, I go to my Father, in heaven eternal,
From the land of exile, from this vale of tears,
The earth can no longer hold back my pure heart,
And the heights of heaven have drawn me close.
I go, O my Bridegroom, I go to see Your glory,
Which even now fills my soul with joy
There were all heaven is plunged in Your adoration,
I feel that my worship is pleasing to You, nothingness though I
am.
In eternal happiness, I will not forget those on earth,
I will obtain God’s mercy for all,
And I will remember especially those who were dear to my heart,
And the deepest absorption in God will not allow me to forget
them.
In these last moments I know not how to converse with others.
In silence I await only You, O Lord.
I know the time will come when all will understand the work of God
in my soul.
I know that such is Your will. – So be it.
O truth, o thorny life,
In order to pass through you victoriously
It is necessary to lean on You, O Christ,
And to be always close to You.
I would not know how to suffer without You, O Christ.
Of myself I would not be able to brave adversities.
Alone, I would not have the courage to drink from Your cup;
But You, Lord, are always with me, and You lead me along
mysterious paths.
A weak child, I have begun the battle in Your Name.
I have fought bravely, though often without success,
And I know that my efforts have pleased You,
And I know that it is the effort alone which you eternally reward.
O truth, O life and death struggle,
When I rose to do battle, an inexperienced knight,
I felt I had a knight’s blood, though still a child,
And therefore, O Christ, I needed Your help and protection.
My heart will not rest from its efforts and struggle
Until you Yourself call me from the field of battle.
I will stand before You, not to receive a reward,
But to be drowned in You, in peace forever.
O Christ, if my soul had known, all at once, what it was going to
have to suffer during its lifetime, it would have died of terror
at the very sight; it would not have touched its lips to the cup
of bitterness. But as it has been given to drink a drop at a time,
it has emptied the cup to the very bottom. O Christ, if You
Yourself did not support the soul, how much could it do of itself?
We are strong, but with Your strength; we are holy, but with Your
holiness. And of ourselves, what are we? – Less than nothing…
My Jesus, You suffice me for everything else in the world.
Although the sufferings are severe, You sustain me. Although the
times of loneliness are terrible, You make them sweet for me.
Although the weakness is great, You change it into power for me.
I do not know how to describe all that I suffer, and what I have
written thus far is merely a drop. There are moments of suffering
about which I cannot write. But there are also moments in my life
when my lips are silent, and there are no words for my defense,
and I submit myself completely to the will of God; then the Lord
Himself defends me and makes claims on my behalf, and His demands
are such that they can be noticed exteriorly. Nevertheless, when I
perceive His major interventions, which manifest themselves by way
of punishment, then I beg Him earnestly for mercy and forgiveness.
Yet I am not always heard. The Lord acts toward me in a mysterious
manner. There are times when He Himself allows terrible
sufferings, and then again there are times when He does not let me
suffer and removes everything that might afflict my soul. These
are His ways, unfathomable and incomprehensible to us. It is for
us to submit ourselves completely to His holy will. There are
mysteries that the human mind will never fathom here on earth;
eternity will reveal them.

April 10, 1938. Palm Sunday. I attended Holy Mass, but did not
have the strength to go and get the palm. I felt so weak that I
barely made it till the end of Mass. During Mass, Jesus gave me to
know the pain of His soul, and I could clearly feel how the hymns
of Hosanna reverberated as a painful echo in His Sacred Heart. My
soul, too, was inundated by a sea of bitterness, and each Hosanna
pierced my own heart to its depths. My whole soul was drawn close
to Jesus. I heard Jesus’ voice: My
daughter, your compassion for Me refreshes Me. By meditating on My
Passion, your soul acquires a distinct beauty.
I received Holy Communion upstairs,
for there was no question of my going down to the chapel since I
was exhausted because of intense sweating, and when that passed, I
had a fever and chills. I felt completely worn out. Today, one of
the Jesuit Fathers [Father Zukowicz] brought us Holy Communion. He
gave the Lord to three other sisters and then to me; and thinking
I was the last, he gave me two hosts. But one of the novices was
lying in bed in the next cell, and there was no Host left for her.
The priest went back again and brought her the Lord, but Jesus
told me, I enter that heart
unwillingly. You received those two hosts, because I delayed My
coming into this soul who resists My grace. My visit to such a
soul is not pleasant for Me. At that
point, my soul was drawn close to Him, and I received a deep inner
light which gave me to understand, in spirit, all the workings of
mercy. It was like a flash of lightning, but more distinct than if
I had watched it for hours with the eyes of my body.
Still, in order to write anything at all, I must make use of
words, though they cannot render all of what my soul enjoyed on
seeing the glory of God’s mercy. The glory of the Divine Mercy
is resounding, even now, in spite of the efforts of its enemies
and satan himself, who has a great hatred for God’s mercy. This
work will snatch a great number of souls from him, and that is why
the spirit of darkness sometimes tempts good people violently, so
that they may hinder the work. But I have clearly seen that the
will of God is already being carried out, and that it will be
accomplished to the very last detail. The enemy’s greatest
efforts will not thwart the smallest detail of what the Lord has
decreed. No matter if there are times when the work seems to be
completely destroyed; it is then that the work is being all the
more consolidated.
My soul was filled with a peace much deeper than anything I had
experienced before, a divine reassurance which nothing can efface,
a deep peace which nothing can disturb, even though I were to go
through the severest of ordeals. I am at peace; God himself
governs all things.
I spent the whole day in thanksgiving, and gratitude kept flooding
my soul. O my God, how good You are, how great is Your mercy! You
visit me with so many graces, me who am a most wretched speck of
dust. Prostrating myself at your feet, O Lord, I confess with a
sincere heart that I have done nothing to deserve even the least
of Your graces. It is in Your infinite goodness that You give
yourself to me so generously. Therefore, the greater the graces
which my heart receives, the deeper it plunges itself in humility.
O Christ, suffering for You is the delight of my heart and my
soul. Prolong my sufferings to infinity, that I may give You a
proof of my love. I accept everything that Your hand will hold out
to me. Your love, Jesus, is enough for me. I will glorify You in
abandonment and darkness, in agony and fear, in pain and
bitterness, in anguish of spirit and grief of heart. In all things
may You be blessed. My heart is so detached from the earth, that
You yourself are enough for me. There is no longer any moment in
my life for self concern.

Holy Thursday, April 14, 1938. Today I felt strong enough to take
part in the ceremonies of the Church. During Holy Mass, Jesus
stood before me and said, Look into My
heart and see there the love and mercy which I have for humankind,
and especially for sinners. Look, and enter into My Passion. In
an instant, I experienced and lived through the whole Passion of
Jesus in my own heart. I was surprised that these tortures did not
deprive me of my life.
During adoration, Jesus said to me, My
daughter, know that your ardent love and the compassion you have
for Me were a consolation to Me in the Garden of Olives.
During Holy Hour in the evening, I
heard the words, You see my mercy for
sinners, which at this moment is revealing itself in all its
power. See how little you have written about it; it is only a
single drop. Do what is in your power, so tht sinners may come to
know My goodness.
Good Friday, April 15, 1938. I saw
the Lord Jesus tortured, but not nailed to the Cross. It was still
before the crucifixion, and He said to me, You
are My Heart. Speak to sinners about My mercy. And
the Lord gave me interior knowledge of the whole abyss of His
mercy for souls, and I learned that that which I had written is
truly a drop.
Holy Saturday, april 16, 1938. During adoration, the Lord said to
me, Be at peace, My daughter. This work
of mercy is Mine; there is nothing of you in it. It pleases Me
that you are carrying out faithfully what I have commanded you to
do, not adding or taking away a single word. And
He gave me an interior light by which I learned that not a single
work was mine; despite difficulties and adversities, I have
always, always fulfilled His will, as He has made known to me.
The Resurrection. Before the Mass of the Resurrection, I felt so
weak that I lost all hope of participating in the procession which
takes place in the church; and I said to the Lord, “Jesus, if my
prayers are pleasing to You, give me the strength for this moment
that I may take part in the procession.” At that same instant, I
felt strong and certain that I could go along with the sisters in
the procession.
When the procession began, I saw Jesus in a brightness greater
than the light of the sun. Jesus looked at me with love and said, Heart
of My Heat, be filled with joy. At
that moment my spirit was drowned in Him… when I came to myself,
I was walking along in the procession with the sisters, while my
soul was totally immersed in Him…
Easter, April 17, 1938. during Mass, I thanked the Lord Jesus for
having deigned to redeem us and for having given us that greatest
of all gifts; namely, His love in Holy Communion; that is, His
very own self. At that moment, I was drawn into the bosom of the
Most Holy Trinity, and I was immersed in the love of the Father,
the Son and the Holy Spirit. These moments are hard to describe.
At that moment, I prayed to the Lord for a certain person, and the
Lord answered me, This soul is
particularly dear to Me. I was
immensely happy with this. The happiness of other souls fills me
with a new joy, and when I see the higher gifts in some soul, my
heart soars up to the Lord in a new hymn of adoration.

April 19, 1938. during recreation, one of the sisters [sister
Cajetan] said, “sister, Faustina is doing so poorly that she can
hardly walk, but may she die soon because she is going to be a
saint.” Then one of the sister directresses [sister Casimir]
said, “That she is going to die, we know; but whether she is
going to be a saint, that is another question.” There then began
some malicious remarks on this subject. I kept silent, then I put
in a word, but I saw that the conversation was getting worse, so
again I fell silent.
At present, I am getting letters from sisters who are in other
houses and who made their novitiate with me. They often amuse me
and make me laugh, as they usually go something like this: “dear
Sister Faustina, we are very sorry that you are so gravely ill;
but we are very happy that, when the Lord Jesus takes you away,
you will pray for us, for you have a lot of influence with the
Lord.” One of the sisters put it this way: “when you die,
sister, please take me under your special care, for certainly you
can do that for me.” Another sister wrote as follows: “how I
am waiting for the time when the Lord Jesus will take you, because
I know what will happen then; and I greatly desire death for
you.” I did want to ask her what she was thinking of, concerning
my death, but I mortified myself and answered. “The same thing
will happen to me, a sinner, as happens to all sinners, if Gods’
mercy does not shield me.”
April 20, 1938. Departure for Pradnik. I was very worried that I
would be put in bed in a ward and be exposed to all sorts of
things. If it were to be for only a week or two… but it is for
such a long time, two months or perhaps more. In the evening, I
went for a long talk with the Lord Jesus. When I saw the Lord
Jesus, I poured out my whole heart before Him, all my troubles,
fears and apprehensions. Jesus lovingly listened to me and then
said, Be at peace, My child, I am with
you. Go in great peace. All is ready; I have ordered, in my own
special way, a private room to be prepared for you. Reassured
and overwhelmed with gratitude I went to bed.
On the following day, Sister Felicia took me there. I left in
great peace and a calm spirit. When we arrived, they told us there
was a private room for sister Faustina. When we entered the room,
we were surprised that everything had been prepared so
beautifully: all was clean and neat, covered with tablecloths and
bedecked with flowers; a pretty Easter Lamb had been placed on the
night table by the sisters. At once, three Sacred Heart sisters
who work at the sanatorium, my old acquaintances, came and greeted
me warmly. Sister Felicia was surprised at all this. We bid a warm
farewell to each other, and she left. When I was alone, with just
the Lord Jesus and myself, I thanked Him for this great grace.
Jesus said to me, Be at peace; I am
with you. Tired, I fell asleep. In
the evening, the sister [sister David] who was to look after me
came and said, “tomorrow you will not receive the Lord Jesus,
sister, because you are very tired; later on, we shall see.”
This hurt me very much, but I said with great calmness, “very
well,” and, resigning myself totally to the will of the Lord, I
tried to sleep. In the morning, I made my meditation and prepared
for Holy Communion, even though I was not to receive the Lord
Jesus. When my love and desire had reached a high degree, I saw at
my bedside a Seraph, who gave me Holy Communion, saying these
words: “Behold the Lord of
Angels.” When I received the Lord,
my spirit was drowned in the love of God and in amazement. This
was repeated for thirteen days, although I was never sure he would
bring me Holy Communion the next day. Yet, I put my trust
completely in the goodness of God, but did not even dare to think
that I would receive Holy Communion in this way on the following
day. The Seraph was surrounded by a great light, the divinity and
love of God being reflected in him. He wore a golden robe and,
over it, a transparent surplice and a transparent stole. The
chalice was crystal, covered with a transparent veil. As soon as
he gave me the Lord, he disappeared.
Once, when a certain doubt rose within me shortly before Holy
Communion, the Seraph with the Lord Jesus stood before me again. I
asked the Lord Jesus, and not receiving an answer, I said to the
Seraph, “could you perhaps hear my confession?” and he
answered me, “No spirit in heaven
has that power.” And at that
moment, the Sacred Host rested on my lips.

On Sunday, April 24, 1938, the sister who had charge of the sick
said to me, “well, sister, the priest will bring you the Lord
Jesus today.” I answered, “good,” and he brought Him. After
some time, I received permission to leave my bed. So I went to
Holy Mass and to spend time with the Lord, regularly.
After the first examination, the doctor [Silberg] found that my
condition was grave. “We suspect, sister, that you do have the
illness about which you spoke to me. But almighty God can do all
things.”
When I entered my room, I steeped myself in prayer of thanksgiving
for everything the Lord had been sending me throughout my whole
life, surrendering myself totally to His most Holy will. A deep
joy and peace flooded my soul. I felt a peace so great that, if
death had come at that moment, I would not have said to it,
“wait, for I still have some matters to attend to.” No, I
would have welcomed it with joy, because I am ready for the
meeting with the Lord, not only today, but ever since the moment
when I placed my complete trust in the Divine Mercy, resigning
myself totally to His most holy will, full of mercy and
compassion. I know what I am of myself…
Low Sunday. Today, I again offered myself to the Lord as a
holocaust for sinners. My Jesus, if the end of my life is already
approaching, I beg you most humbly, accept my death in union with
You as a holocaust which I offer You today, while I still have
full possession of my faculties and a fully conscious will, and
this for a threefold purpose:
Firstly: that the work of Your Mercy may spread throughout the
whole world and that the feast of the Divine Mercy may be solemnly
promulgated and celebrated.
Secondly: That sinners, especially dying sinners, may have
recourse to Your Mercy and experience the unspeakable effects of
this mercy.
Thirdly: that all the work of Your mercy may be realized according
to Your wishes, and for a certain person who is in charge of this
work…
Accept, most merciful Jesus, this, my inadequate sacrifice, which
I offer to You today before heaven and earth. May your most Sacred
Heart, so full of mercy, complete what is lacking in my offering,
and offer it to Your Father for the conversion of sinners. I
thirst after souls, O Christ.
At that moment, the light of God penetrated my being, and I felt
that I was Gods’ exclusive property; and I experienced the
greatest spiritual freedom, of which I had had no previous idea.
And at the same time, I saw the glory of the Divine Mercy and an
infinite multitude of souls who were praising His goodness. My
soul was completely drowned in God, and I heard the words, You
are My well-beloved daughter. The
vivid presence of God continued throughout the whole day.

May 1, 1938. This evening, Jesus said to me, My
daughter, do you need anything? I
answered, “O my Love, when I have You I have everything.” And
the Lord answered, If souls would put
themselves completely in My care, I myself would undertake the
task of sanctifying them, and I would lavish even greater graces
on them. There are souls who thwart My efforts, but I have not
given up on them; as often as they turn to Me, I hurry to their
aid, shielding them with My mercy, and I give them the first place
in My compassionate Heart.
Write for the benefit of religious souls that it delights me to
come to their hearts in Holy Communion. But if there is anyone
else in such a heart, I cannot bear it and quickly leave that
heart, taking with Me all the gifts and graces I have prepared for
the soul. And the soul does not even notice my going. After some
time, inner emptiness and dissatisfaction will come to her
attention. Oh, if only she would turn to Me then; I would help her
to cleanse her heart, and I would fulfill everything in her soul,
but without her knowledge and consent, I cannot be the Master of
her heart.
I often communicate with persons who
are dying and obtain the divine mercy for them. Oh, how great is
the goodness of God, greater than we can understand. There are
moments and there are mysteries of the divine mercy over which the
heavens are astounded. Let or judgment of souls cease, for God’s
mercy upon them is extraordinary.
During Holy hour today, I asked the Lord Jesus if He would deign
to teach me about the spiritual life. Jesus answered me, My
daughter, faithfully live up to the words which I speak to you. Do
not value any external things too highly, even if it were to seem
very precious to you. Let go of yourself, and abide with Me
continually. Entrust everything to Me and do nothing on your own,
and you will always have great freedom of spirit. No circumstances
or events will ever be able to upset you. Set little store on what
people say. Let everyone judge you as they like. Do not make any
excuses for yourself; it will do you no harm. Give away everything
at the first sign of a demand, even if they were the most
necessary things. Do not ask for anything without consulting Me.
Allow them to take away even what is due you – respect, your
good name – let your spirit rise above all that. And so, set
free from everything, rest close to My Heart, not allowing your
peace to be disturbed by anything. My pupil, consider the words
which I have spoken.
O my love, my eternal Master, how
good it is to obey; because when obedience infuses the soul, it
brings with it power and strength to act.
Today I saw the crucified Lord Jesus. Precious pearls and diamonds
were pouring forth from the wound in His Heart. I saw how a
multitude of souls was gathering these gifts, but there was one
soul who was closest to His Heart, and she, knowing the greatness
of these gifts, was gathering them with liberality, not only for
herself, but for others as well. The Savior said to me, Behold,
the treasures of grace that flow down upon souls, but not all
souls know how to take advantage of My generosity.
Today, the Lord said to me, My
daughter, look into My Merciful Heart and reflect its compassion
in our own heart and in your deeds, so that you, who proclaim My
mercy to the world, may yourself be aflame with it.

May 8, 1938. Today, I saw two enormous pillars implanted in the
ground; I had implanted one of them, and a certain person, S.M.,
the other. We had done so with unheard of effort, much fatigue and
difficulty. And when I had implanted the pillar, I myself wondered
where such extraordinary strength had come from. And I recognized
that I had not done this by my own strength, but with the power
which came from above. These two pillars were close to each other,
in the area of the image. And I saw the image, raised up very high
and hanging from these two pillars. In an instant, there stood a
large temple, supported both from within and from without, upon
these two pillars. I saw a hand finishing the temple, but I did
not see the person. There was a great multitude of people, inside
and outside the temple, and the torrents issuing from the
Compassionate Heart of Jesus were flowing down upon everyone.
After Holy Communion today, Jesus said, My
daughter, give Me souls, know that it is your mission to win souls
from Me by prayer and sacrifice, and by encouraging them to trust
in My mercy.
Oh, how greatly I desire the glory of
Your mercy – for me, bitterness and suffering! When I see the
glory of your mercy, I am immeasurably happy. Let all disgrace,
humiliation come down upon me, as long as the glory and praise of
Your mercy resounds everywhere – that’s all that matters.
The Creator and The Creature.
I adore You, Lord and Creator, hidden in the Blessed Sacrament. I
adore You for all the works of Your hands, that reveal to me so
much wisdom, goodness and mercy, O Lord. You have spread so much
beauty over the earth, and it tells me about Your beauty, even
though these beautiful things are but a faint reflection of You,
Incomprehensible Beauty. And although You have hidden yourself and
concealed Your beauty, my eye, enlightened by faith, reaches You,
and my soul recognizes its Creator, its Highest Good; and my heart
is completely immersed in prayer of adoration.
My Lord and creator, Your goodness encourages me to converse with
You. Your mercy abolishes the chasm which separates the Creator
from the creature. To converse with You, O Lord, is the delight of
my heart. In You I find everything that my heart could desire.
Here Your light illumines my mind, enabling it to know You more
and more deeply. Here streams of graces flow down upon my heart.
Here my soul draws eternal life. O my Lord and Creator, You alone,
beyond all these gifts, give your own self to me and unite
Yourself intimately with Your miserable creature. Here, without
searching for words, our hearts understand each other. Here, no
one is able to interrupt our conversation. What I talk to You
about, Jesus, is our secret, which creatures shall not know and
Angels dare not ask about. These are secret acts of forgiveness,
known only to Jesus and me; this is the mystery of His mercy,
which embraces each soul separately. For this incomprehensible
goodness of Yours, I adore You, O Lord and Creator, with all my
heart and all my soul. And, although my worship is so little and
poor, I am at peace because I know that You know it is sincere,
however inadequate…
As I was writing the above words, I saw the Lord Jesus leaning
over me, and He asked, My daughter,
what are you writing? I answered,
“I am writing about You, Jesus, about Your being hidden in the
Blessed Sacrament, about Your inconceivable love and mercy for
people.” And Jesus said, Secretary of
My most profound mystery, know that yours is an exclusive intimacy
with Me. Your task is to write down everything that I make known
to you about My mercy, for the benefit of those who by reading
these things will be comforted in their souls and will have the
courage to approach Me. I therefore want you to devote all your
free moments to writing. “But, O
Lord, shall I always have a moment, at least a brief one, in which
to write?” and Jesus answered, it is
not for you to think about that. Only do as much as you can, and I
will always arrange things so that you will easily be able to do
what I ask of you…

Today, I was visited by a certain lay person [probably Stanislava
Kwietniewska] who has caused me a lot of sorrow and who has abused
my goodness, telling many lies. At the first moment I saw her, the
blood froze in my veins, because there stood before my eyes all
that I had to suffer because of her, although with one word I
could have freed myself of them all. And the thought came to me to
tell her the truth, firmly and immediately. But at the same
moment, the mercy of God came before my eyes, and I resolved to
act toward her as Jesus would have acted in my place. I started to
talk to her gently, and when she expressed the wish to talk to me
alone, I then, in a very delicate manner, made know to her clearly
the sad condition of her soul. I saw that she was deeply moved,
though she was trying to hide this from me. At that point, a third
person came in, and so our heart-to-heart talk came to an end. She
asked me for a glass of water and for two other things which I did
willingly. However, had it not been for the grace of God, I would
not have been able to act in such a way toward her. When they
left, I thanked God for the grace which had supported me during
that time.
Then I heard the words, I am glad you
behaved like My true daughter. Be always merciful as I am
merciful. Love everyone out of love for Me, even your greatest
enemies, so that My mercy may be fully reflected in your heart.
O Christ, although much effort is
required, all things can be done with Your grace.
I was feeling fairly well today, and I was glad that I would be
able to make the Holy Hour. But when I began to make the Holy
Hour, my physical sufferings intensified, so that I was not able
to pray. When the Holy Hour was over, my sufferings came to an
end, and I complained to the Lord that I had wanted so much to
steep myself in His sorrowful Passion, but that my sufferings had
not allowed me to do so. Then Jesus said to me, My
daughter, know that if I allow you to feel and have a more
profound knowledge of My sufferings, that is a grace from Me. But
when your mind is dimmed and your sufferings are great, it is then
that you take an active part in My Passion, and I am conforming
you more fully to Myself. It is your task to submit yourself to My
will at such time, more than at others…
I often attend upon the dying and
through entreaties obtain for them trust in God’s mercy, and I
implore God for an abundance of divine grace, which is always
victorious. God’s mercy sometimes touches the sinner at the last
moment in a wondrous and mysterious way. Outwardly, it seems as if
everything were lost, but it is not so. The soul, illuminated by a
ray of God’s powerful final grace, turns to God in the last
moment with such a power of love that, in an instant, it receives
from God forgiveness of sin and punishment, while outwardly it
shows no sign either of repentance or of contrition, because souls
[at that stage] no longer react to external things. Oh, how beyond
comprehension is God’s mercy! But – horror! – There are also
souls who voluntarily and consciously reject and scorn this grace!
Although a person is at the point of death, the merciful God gives
the soul that interior vivid moment, so that if the soul is
willing, it has the possibility of returning to God. But
sometimes, the obduracy in souls is so great that consciously they
choose hell; they thus make useless all the prayers that other
souls offer to God for them and even the efforts of God himself…

J.M.J.
Solitude – my favorite moments,
Solitude – but always with You, Jesus and Lord,
Close to Your Heart, time passes pleasantly for me,
And, close to Him, my soul finds its repose.
When the heart is filled with You and overflowing with love,
And the soul burns with pure fire,
Then, amidst the utmost desolation, the soul will not experience
loneliness,
Because it rests on Your bosom.
O solitude – moments of supreme companionship,
Though I be abandoned by all creatures,
I immerse myself totally in the ocean of Your Godhead,
And You listen sweetly to my confidences.

This evening the Lord asked me, Do you
not have any desires in your heart? I
answered, “I have one great desire, and it is to be united with
You forever.” And the Lord answered me, that
will happen soon. My dearest child, your every stirring is
reflected in My Heart. My gaze rests kindly upon you before any
other creature.
I asked the Lord today that He might
deign to teach me about the interior life, because of myself I can
neither understand nor conceive anything perfectly. The Lord
answered me, I was your Teacher, I am
and will be; strive to make your heart like unto My humble and
gentle heart. Never claim your rights. Bear with great calm and
patience everything that befalls you. Do not defend yourself when
you are put to shame, though innocent. Let others triumph. Do not
stop being good when you noticed that your goodness is being
abused. I myself will speak for you when it is necessary. Be
grateful for the smallest of My graces, because your gratitude
compels Me to grant you new graces…
Toward the end of the Way of the
Cross which I was making, the Lord Jesus began to complain about
the souls of religious and priests, about the lack of love in
chosen souls. I will allow convents and
churches to be destroyed. I answered,
“Jesus, but there are so many souls praising You in convents.”
The Lord answered, that praise wounds
My Heart, because love has been banished from convents. Souls
without love and without devotion, souls full of egoism and
self-love, souls full of pride and arrogance, souls full of deceit
and hypocrisy, lukewarm souls who have just enough warmth to keep
them alive: My Heart cannot bear this. All the graces that I pour
out upon them flow off them as off the face of a rock. I cannot
stand them, because they are neither good or bad. I called
convents into being to sanctify the world through them. It is from
them that a powerful flame of love and sacrifice should burst
forth. And if they do not repent and become enkindled by their
first love, I will deliver them over to the fate of this world…
How can they sit on the promised throne of judgment to judge the
world, when their guilt is greater than the guilt of the world?
There is neither penance nor atonement. O heart, which received me
in the morning and at noon are all ablaze with hatred against Me,
hatred of all sorts! O heart specially chosen by Me, were you
chosen for this, to give Me more pain? The great sins of the world
are superficial wounds on My Heart, but the sins of a chosen soul
pierce My Heart through and through…
When I tried to intercede for them, I
could find nothing with which to excuse them and, being at the
time unable to think of anything in their defense, my heart was
seized with pain, and I wept bitterly. Then the Lord looked at me
kindly and comforted me with these words: Do
not cry. There are still a great number of souls who love Me very
much, but My Heart desires to be loved by all and, because My love
is great, that is why I warn and chastise them.

Struggle with a certain temptation. There was a person who kept
accosting me with flattering words, and since he knew when I went
out to go to the chapel or to the veranda, he would bar my way.
Since he did not dare approach me by himself, he found another
person like himself, but neither of them dared approach. As I was
on my way to the May devotions, they were already standing there
where I had to pass. I hadn’t yet reached them when I heard
inciting words, directed at me. And the Lord permitted me to know
the intentions of their hearts, which were not good. I felt they
would block my way after the service, and then I would have to
talk to them, for up to that time, I hadn’t said a word.
When I left the chapel, they were there, armed and waiting for me
to pass. This time, I was overcome with fear. Then Jesus stood by
me and said, Do not fear, I am with
you. Then I felt an extraordinary
strength in my soul, which I cannot describe and, being a few
steps from them, I said boldly and loudly, “Praised be Jesus
Christ.” And they, stepping aside, responded, “for ever and
ever. Amen.” As if struck by lightning, they bowed their heads,
not even daring to look at me. After I had passed, I could hear
some malicious comments. Ever since that time, when this person
sees me, he runs away in order not to meet me and I, thanks to the
Lord, have been left in peace…
After Holy Mass, I went out to the garden to make my meditation,
since there were not yet any patients in the garden at this time,
and so I felt at ease. As I was meditating on the blessings of
God, my heart was burning with a love so strong that it seemed my
breast would burst. Suddenly Jesus stood before me and said, what
are you doing here so early? I
answered, “I am thinking of You, of Your mercy and Your goodness
toward us. And You, Jesus what are You doing here?” I
have come out to meet you, to lavish new graces on you. I am
looking for souls who would like to receive My grace.
During Vespers today, the Lord gave
me to know how very pleased He is with a pure and free heart. I
felt that it is God’s delight to look into such a heart… but
such hearts are knightly hearts; their life is a constant
battle…
On my way to the veranda, I |